Saturday, November 14, 2009

兩週一聚 (二十六期) 「寫給自己的信」 / 2weeks1gather (#26)「Letter to Myself」

隨筆信是很容易寫,可是那「自己」卻是很難定斷,那是昨日丶還是今日的「我」? 昨日的我,把那人生流水帳寫得太淋漓詳盡了,由其是那情之一物,三千煩惱絲,剪不斷,理還乱! 今日的我,將回憶往事一磚一石,築成了護城河,沒有吊橋的堡壘,敵不進丶我不出,在圍牆中自由生活,心如止水,樂也融融。平日閑時無事,看那日出日落,春風秋雨,北雁南飛。要是寂寞無聊,提起神筆一揮,動鼠一點,那蜆蚌中的世界裂嘴应声而開,剪貼的網誌成了話劇,自己也笑啊啊的置身其中。惱人的倒是那螢光幕中模糊的面孔,也看不清楚是不是我自己的反影,在午夜夢迴之際,他好像在說:『勿忘看寫給你的電郵,歲月蹉跎,切記勿誤。』




My other blog articles:
* 蜆蚌世界 / Photo Story: Small Happy World
* 情之一物 / Heart Love Relationships

Related links:
* 今次出題網友「南杏」 【Blog聚】關於第二十六期(15/11)題目
* 其它「寫給自己的信」


Sam said...

LOL That's really zen!
But then again, this assignment is bound to be very personal. It is completely alright that we indulge in our little world for this topic.

michelle said...

那個附貼的 gif 很可愛 :)
堡壘的吊橋打開了,可能不久要把心如止水改寫為心心相印啦 ;)


San Wen Ji said...


Anonymous said...



San Wen Ji said...


微豆 Haricot said...

Sam: Yes, I have taken the liberty to indulge myself with a Zen-like storyline :)

微豆 Haricot said...


>> ... 把心如止水,改寫為心心相印

I already have the castle. All I need is a white horse and a fair young maiden to rescue !!!

>> ... 出下期題目嗎
I have sent you an email :(

微豆 Haricot said...

San Wen Ji:

Yeah, I don't like to be nagged (even if it's by myself) too many times @_@

微豆 Haricot said...


Here is my reply ....

軀体、靈魂、自我 (上册) / Body, Soul and Self (Part 1 of 2)

微豆 Haricot said...

San Wen Ji:

"無我" is more difficult for me to attain these days because everyone wants "me" to help ... not that I am complaining, I am just stating a fact.

Anonymous said...


Haricot, aren't you married? For some reasons, I always thought you are a happily married man!


微豆 Haricot said...

Exile: "心如止水,樂也融融" refers to a "me" in one of the many possible parallel universes in the future. (you can tell I have watched too many Star Trek TV series and movies).

Anonymous said...

??? This article is too difficult for me. Sometimes you write like a Ming Dynasty poet, then out of the blue you write like a Star Trek freak? Everyone seems to "get" it but me la :-)

Anonymous said...


微豆 Haricot said...


Okay, I got your "Earth-to-Haricot" message and will give the story some context and explanations.

I have met ppl who were happy and lively in their younger days but then turn sour in their sunset years. Some may become the stereotyped grumpy old men or cranky old ladies - nothing in life will ever please them. Yet, some may wall themselves in emotionally and/or physically (自閉), as in the case of the character known as "將來的我" in this story. So this "future-me" character is quite pleased with himself, feeling safe inside his emotionally-frozen walled castle, until one day he receives this cryptic animated message from someone who tells him to wise up. Of course, this someone is yours truly, the present-day Haricot talking to himself through warped time. The message is this: Life is full of ups and downs, happiness and sorrow, fulfillments and disappointments. We have loving relationships as well as heart-breaking moments. We find loyalty in friends, and also betrayals at times. But that's no reason to choose the path of least resistance, hide from one's emotions/experience, and turn into Mr. Frozen. Enjoy life as it comes, good or bad.

Now, you have also asked: "For some reasons, I always thought you are a happily married man!" Yes I am happy with how life has been treating me and consider myself lucky in many ways - I mean I could have been born during the war years or grown up in some war-torn, famine-stricken countries. However, it is also my understanding that 自閉症 is not that uncommon among older folks who can no longer cope with everyday ups and downs, compared to younger ppl like you and I. The "message to myself" serves as a reminder to never go down that emotionless path.

Please do not hesitate to ask if you still find the story inscrutible.

微豆 Haricot said...


>> ... Sometimes you write like a Ming Dynasty poet, then out of the blue you write like a Star Trek freak?

No, I am not bipolar or have multiple-personalities. It is just the way the brain works, some sectors control poetry, others blue-sky concepts.

Reference: "Brain Tour"

ps: Spelling correction: "inscrutable"

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